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  • Dying Every Minute By Sempad Shahnazarian

    Dying Every Minute. This story is written by Sempad Shahnazarian a survivor of the Armenian genocide. Mr. Shahnazarian was born in Turkey and attended the Armenian College in Constantinople where he received his AB degree shortly before the war began. He was drafted into the Turkish Army and served as an artillery officer until the Turk’s treatment of the Armenian people drove him to desert. He was arrested... escaped again... and joined the French Legion d’Orient fighting the Turks until the end of the war. After the war Mr. Shahnazarian immigrated to America and lived till the age of 96, he passed away on September 22, 1985, in Brownsville, Texas. - This story is an accurate representation of the atrocities carried out by the Turks against the defenseless Armenians. Mr. Shahnazarian writes from his first hand experiences during his service with the French Legion d’Orient, his pen is fluent and poetic, describing every small detail in a graphical manner with an elegant and graceful style.





    Dying Every Minute
    By Sempad Shahnazarian

    he end of the first world war was in sight. The Turkish resistance on the Palestine Front was shattered, and the British forces, assisted by the Legion d’Orient, were in hot pursuit of the demoralized enemy.

    It was autumn. A battalion of Armenian Legionnaires was being transported on board a French cruiser, from Cyprus to Cilicia to bolster the Allied occupational forces there.

    The night was clear and windy, and the ship plowed relentlessly through the dark waters of the Mediterranean Sea.

    The masts stood high, silent and watchful; and the guns, like huge logs, elevated on steel platforms, craned their necks toward the dark, wet and hissing distances.

    The rolling billows crashed continually against the heavy sides of the ship; and at times, the sky seemed so low over the heaving and raging sea, that the waves were tempted to reach higher and higher to splash their cool and foamy shower at the jewel-studded face of the night.

    Innumerable sparks danced graciously in the curves of the breaking waves, -- countless tiny animals with minute lanterns, that breathed and pulsated with life.

    Sitting on the deck, at the base of a big gun, Vartan gazed wistfully, now and then, in the direction where the vessel was moving, and read the story he was working on.

    “It was about two years ago, when that terrible thing happened; and it happened with Mustapha’s strange dream.”

    A ghost stood on the bank of a river that flowed blood, and watched in a trance, an immense conflagration that crashed through cities and towns and ripening wheat fields.

    Through the cracks in the smoke and flames, one could clearly see the frames of the buildings burning brightly and entire cities and villages turning into heaps of embers.

    The ghost said:

    “Mustapha! My son! Behold this beautiful sight of our world! Isn’t it just enchanting? You know you were born on the bank of this river and bathed in its crimson waters...But why are you looking so surprised?...Oh, those voices!...Those muffled sounds!...They are but the sighs and sobs of the dead left behind in the folds of this infernal river.

    Come now!...Closer...Give me your hand!...I shall immerse you in it...Your ancestors were all born here, and all were good swimmers...It requires talent to swim in the sluggishly flowing thick and slimy river...It’s here where Tamerlane, Genghiz Khan, Abdul Hamid and many others were born. Be worthy of your ancestors!...Feel, it’s so warm and comfortable!...Dive in...Go deeper and deeper!...I know you will like it!...

    Come out now! See? The heat is caking the blood on you...Magnificent! You look like a red statue...

    Here are your tools;...Take them! They’re the things you need the most in your life...A dagger and a hatchet...Their blades have been tempered in the dark waters of the Styx.

    Look again, at this magnificent panorama of fire...Look and feel its charm and beauty!...Open your arms and embrace my world; the world of your ancestors!...

    Wake up, effendi! Wake up, Mustapha effendi! Someone knocked excitedly on the door.

    Mustapha jumped from his sleep and sat motionless in bed. He looked around dazed and confounded. Then, he shook the sleep off of him, got up, opened the door and saw one of his men waiting outside with a letter in his hand.

    Without opening it, he snapped his fingers joyfully and exclaimed, “This is it!...This is what I’ve been waiting for...”

    He opened the letter and read it. “Just what I thought.” He exclaimed with joy. “Get the boys ready! Quick! We have important business to tend to...”

    He went back into his room, got dressed, and put on his high boots, spurs and sheepskin hat. From his leather belt hung a dagger and a pistol; and two bands of cartridges crossed his chest over his shoulders.

    When he came out, his men and his horse were waiting for him.

    He said: “Men! An exact copy of this letter has been sent to every governor and mayor by Talaat Pasha, the Minister of Interior. Armenians are to be deported from their homes to Arabia...You know what that means...We are all going to be rich...We shall inherit everything they posses; Money, land and business. Today is the day!...Get on your horses!” And they rode away.

    The sight of the burning towns and fields depicted in his dream, inspired and intoxicated him. The glorious ocean of flames, and the rolling billows of smoke haunted his avid imagination, and he took great pride in having found the path his ancestors had followed ever since the dawn of their history.

    Riding at the head of his gang, Mustapha spurred his horse, and trotted on, drunk by the prospect of their exploits.

    It was Sunday; and the people of the village had gathered in the church for morning service.

    A heavy scent of incense and burning candles filled the air. An undertone of prayer rose from the congregation like a thin veil of mist from the slumbering lake.

    The lights of the torches and altar reflected in the silver candlesticks and the sparkling cross and the jewel-studded sacred vestment of the priest, and show red colorful lights upon the ceiling, the walls and the congregation, giving everything the air of unearthliness.

    Madonna’s motherly smile radiated from the loft with a caressing and comforting warmth.

    At this moment, the crash of horses’ hooves was heard at the entrance. A sudden commotion, and everyone’s eyes turned toward the door.

    Mustapha followed by some of his men, suddenly barged into the church. The curses and the clatter of their footsteps drowned the service.

    He went up the stone steps to the altar, with a whip in his hand. He stood insolently by the priest, an ironical smile on his face, and his hands on his hips, while his men scattered around in the church, they all awaited his signal...

    “...Stop the service right away and follow my men out!” said Mustapha.

    The church sunk in silence. The old priest, with the silver cross in his hand, said calmly, “What do you mean, Mustapha effendi?”

    “... Just what I said.”

    “...But this is a crime.”

    “...Shut up! Do as I said.”

    “...But this is a crime, an unpardonable crime...The way you’re acting in the presence of God.” said the priest.

    “...Shut up you bloody beggar.”

    Raising the cross solemnly before his eyes, the priest continued quietly.

    “...You will, someday, be punished by this Holy Cross for your horrible attitude here.”

    Mustapha, knocking the cross out of his hand, kicked him down the steps of the altar.

    A chorus of hair-raising screams came out of the congregation, like the crash of huge waves breaking against the reefs of the ocean.

    Arsen, a youth of twenty, dashed with an uncontrollable rage, to the altar and threw himself upon Mustapha. But sensing the sacredness of the spot, he stood before him with clenched fists, and his eyes stared at him like the steel blade of a knife.

    “What do you mean by all this?”

    The corners of Mustapha’s mouth curled up, and with a diabolical glint in his eyes, he spit in his face.

    “...Come on out, you coward,” said Arsen. “I can’t fight in the church.” And he walked down the steps to the door.

    Outside, the congregation clashed with Mustapha’s men. Women and children were xxxxxled over. Screams and terror filled the air; and soon everything subsided, leaving several fatally wounded men and women on the ground.

    At the edge of town, the priest and many prominent men were overpowered and, with their hands tied behind them, they were slaughtered with hatchets.

    Children screamed, terrified, and took refuge behind their mother’s aprons and shut their eyes tightly, so the Turks couldn’t find them.

    The sun went down, and the caravan, surrounded like storm-driven sheep, moved on to an unknown destination, joining on the way, other caravans and other bands.

    After marching for three days, they arrived at Ayran, in the Amanos ridges. Many women and children had already died from hunger and exhaustion, and their corpses had been thrown away in the bushes.

    The sun was on the meridian. The sky clear and bright and the heat torturing. Arsen’s hands were tied behind his back and he managed as much as he could to walk with Hasmik and her mother, carrying on his shoulder Hasmik’s baby brother, Armen.

    They came down the rocky slope limping and panting. Avalanches of shattered stone and gravel went down the mountainside. Perspiration had caked the chalky dust on their faces. To protect the chastity of their daughters, mothers had smeared mud on their faces with the hope of making them repulsive.

    Mustapha and his men kept the caravan moving under the cracks of their whips. Babies who couldn’t keep pace with the grown-ups, were left behind to be taken care of by the beasts.

    Armen had been crying for water all day. A bluish haze of heat shimmered over the woods and the valley, down below. Brownish metallic rocks poured out inexhaustible heat, and Armen cried persistently for water. He hadn’t eaten anything for two days. They coaxed him to have a little patience...Soon they would have some...Just a little patience and everything would be all right. His fingers clung tight to Arsen’s hair, and his soft thighs pressed against his face. He was quiet now; they were glad. He didn’t cry any more for water....He had become patient...He knew everything would be all right....He even tried to cooperate in torture...bad as it was...He even stopped squirming...

    Then, suddenly, his grip loosened, his legs got cooler against his cheeks and with a muffled moan he fell off onto the ground, with a small avalanche of gravel and stone rolling with him down the rocky slope.

    His mother and sister screamed frantically and tumbled down after him. They took him in their arms, and kissed him, coaxed him, implored him.

    In vain.

    Their reviving efforts were futile, and suddenly, they both burst into tears. He was dead.

    Mustapha’s whip cracked on their heads with obscene cursing.

    “...Move on! Get going! You bloody xxxxxes!”

    Not very far from there, in a secluded hollow, hordes of Turks and Kurds dashed from behind the bushes and chaparral, and swooped down upon these unfortunates with knives and hatchets.

    The crowd charged with their bare hands, kicking, biting, cursing. But the knives and the hatchets proved to be far more sharper...The slaughter was under way. Mustapha successfully tested how sharp his knife and hatchet were. With one stroke of his hatchet, he chopped the head of Hasmik’s mother off into the ditch.

    Hasmik screamed and lunged after her, unnoticed, beneath the headless heap of corpses, pressing her breast against the bleeding head of her mother.

    After everything was over, Mustapha, accompanied by two of his men, took Arsen to the nearby town, Islahie.

    Why didn’t he kill him? Why all this extra trouble?

    They stopped in front of a one-story building. Two guards stood at the gate, with fixed-bayonets. They entered the courtyard. His clothes were gray from the chalky dust of the road, and his face was caked with dirt.

    .
    .
    . They walked across the court, then through a door in the opposite wall. They entered into a spacious room, stone-floored, bare and desolate. In one corner stood an ordinary, unpainted table, with a chair before it, occupied by an armed Turk. Not very far from him, two Anatolian brutes sat on the floor, with their backs against the wall. They were in short sleeves, wearing baggy trousers of dirty white cotton, and long lashes curled in their laps.

    Dying Every Minute (Continued)
    As they entered, one of the men got up walked across the room to the wall, bent down, and pushed a small sliding door open. A dark hole gaped in silence.

    He called out in a harsh voice “...Come on out you dirty swine!”

    No answer was heard from within. He came down to his knees and peeped into the hole. An offensive smell pinched his nose, and his nostrils quivered.

    “...It’s to you I am talking! You dirty rat! What are you lying on your back for? Can’t you hear me?”

    Again, he didn’t get an answer. Then, holding his breath, he stuck his head into the opening, and reaching with his right hand, he dragged something out; a shapeless mass of a human being. He dragged him out by his leg to the center of the room, joining his men, who stood on each side of the dying unfortunate. He commanded: “...Ready!” The men uncoiled their long black lashes and let them lay a moment on the floor. Then, to the rhythm of the sergeant’s harsh voice, they went into action “...One...Two...Three...Four...”

    The lashes whined and cracked on the dying man’s body. They coiled and uncoiled like rattlesnakes and their black marks girdled his bare, emaciated and faintly breathing chest.

    He couldn’t scream, nor cry. He had no strength left for that.

    After the sergeant reached the hundred and fiftieth time, he stopped, and with a disdainful motion of his hand, he said: “Drag him out and throw him into the ditch, with the others.” And turning to Mustapha, said with an ironical smile. “The floor is yours now...” And he left the room with his men.

    Mustapha, a satanic glint in his eyes, took the stand, nodded to his men to get ready, and beckoned to Arsen to take the dying man’s place on the floor.

    A few minutes later, they dragged him, unconscious, threw him in the dark hole and closed the door behind.

    Mustapha suddenly remembered he had forgotten a very important matter and he hurried back to the hollow where the massacre had taken place. He took a big stick from the bushes, stuck it into the ditch, and began pushing the corpses to one side, trying to discover Hasmik’s body.

    The sun had gone down, and the dusk, like a thin black haze, covered the valley. The ditch was a gruesome sight. Indescribable sounds came out of the disfigured , dismembered and bleeding bodies. Here an arm jerks spasmodically; there a leg. The muscle of an eye twitches, as if the dead persons were winking, and a lifeless convulsion breaks the thickening blood in the throat with muffled gurgles.

    Someone stirred in the bushes. Mustapha turned and listened. He listened and slowly approached the suspected spot. His pistol in his hand, he got closer and peeped into the thick chaparral, then, with a broad smile on his face he stopped and looked at his men who were scurrying the countryside.

    “...Here she is!...Right here!” Slowly, and dejectedly, Hasmik came to her feet, dishevelled and bloody.

    He rode to the village, high in the mountains. He dismounted and carried her into a deserted house and flung her on the bed. She kicked and bit and scratched, and struggled violently.

    He finally overpowered her.

    Her unconscious state didn’t bother Mustapha...A moment later, he stood looking at the still unconscious body of Hasmik who lay on the bed. A fiendish smile curled the corners of his mouth.

    “...It will take time to tame her...Just a little patience, and everything will be all right...” Then he curled his mustache and walked out humming a cheerful song.

    The little village was situated in one of the upper recesses of Amanos ridges, overlooking a vast scene of deserted towns. He stood in front of his house and gazed at the desolate distance: at the fields with no workers, at the houses with no dwellers, at the churches with no worshippers, and chuckled.

    An immeasurable mass of human avalanche was being rolled down to the burning sands of Arabia. An entire race was being thrown into the crackling flames. Mustapha, remembered his dream and felt fine.
    "All truth passes through three stages:
    First, it is ridiculed;
    Second, it is violently opposed; and
    Third, it is accepted as self-evident."

    Arthur Schopenhauer (1788-1860)

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    Cont...

    Months rolled on, and Mustapha would ride, now and then, with his men to surprise the rolling caravans, to rape the girls, to attack the women, and to kill anyone they pleased and come back with all their belongings.

    In the meantime, Hasmik was getting bigger and bigger. She couldn’t conceal it any longer. Her eyes were red from continual weeping.

    Many times she heard shrill screams from the village where she now lived. Many times, she saw Mustapha coming home with bloody hands and bloody clothes.

    What has become of Arsen? Is he dead, like her mother and brother, or, is he still alive drifting along...No hope? How can she live without him?

    She couldn’t bear to see Mustapha. She couldn’t stand his voice. Every time he came home, she would go and hide herself in a dark corner of the house and cry.

    He would drag her out, and would struggle to kiss her; but, she always kicked and struggled and scratched, and then fainted.

    She could never go out alone. Always, someone spied on her. How she wished to be able to go out and throw herself from the cliff, into the precipice, and finish everything!...

    he had become very big now...The fruit of the crime was ripening fast. The thought of it pained her, tortured her...But Mustapha was happy, and he anxiously waited for the birth...The birth of a boy...He even tried to be more humane toward her. But in vain. She just couldn’t stand the sight of him.

    And a baby was born. A son, who was named Ahmed, after Mustapha’s father. How happy he was!

    A few days after the birth, the entire village celebrated the event. They ate and drank and danced. There was nobody in the house, but Hasmik and the baby. Outside, everybody was having fun. The shouts of the celebration pierced her heart like the blade of a knife. She couldn’t look at the baby’s face. His cries alone were enough to drive her mad. Who was he, anyway? Wasn’t he the little Mustapha?...How could she willingly let his filthy lips touch her breast?...They were not created to nurse him...They belonged to Arsen’s children...

    A huge kettle of soup was boiling on the fire, and the flames leaped gracefully and licked its black sides. Now and then, the boiling liquid would spill over the brim into the fire, hissing and crackling.

    A thought flashed into her mind. A dark thought. She stared a moment, at the boiling soup, her nerves taut, her heart in suspense. She kept looking at it. Her entire being was in the grip of a whirlpool.

    The baby kept crying, from hunger. Flashes leaped into her brain, like glares of lightning in a stormy night.

    She got up, lifted the crying baby, walked toward the fire, and with a cold and merciless hatred in her eyes, she threw him into the boiling soup.

    ...Shrill screams...muffled sounds...the hiss of the spilled soup in the fire...everything was over.

    Hasmik stealthily walked out of the house, plunged into the dark woods and disappeared.

    Here, Vartan stopped with a yawn, put his diary back into his pocket and cast a tired look at the greying dawn.

    The bugler suddenly sounded reveille and the legionnaires grouped on the deck.

    “...Land!...Land!” exclaimed Arsen, who with his knapsack and rifle hanging carelessly from his shoulder, pushed his way through the packed deck toward Vartan.

    “...What are you doing all by yourself?” he said.

    “...I’ve been up all night...couldn’t sleep,” said Vartan.

    “...I couldn’t sleep either. How excited I am!”

    “...The story of our experiences kept me awake...Part of them, I should say...I haven’t covered everything yet...like, how you escaped from the torture chamber in Islahie and how you came to join the French Foreign Legion on Cyprus Island.”

    Arsen’s eyes became gloomy, and he looked silently at the bright outline of the Amanos mountains, bordering the Gulf of Alexandrette.

    Strips of rosy clouds appeared in the east, and suddenly, flames of the rising sun splashed a huge fire upon the top of Musa Dagh.

    It was cold and windy. White crested waves crashed against one another, and the ship plowed its way through the roaring surf toward the port of Alexandrette, in the shadow of the gigantic mountain.

    The disembarkation took all morning. The hustle and bustle subsided around noon, and the battalion marched out of Alexandrette toward Deurt-Yole. Creeks, ravines and a mantle of thick vegetation marked the way.


    . Arsen and Vartan walked side by side. New sensations stirred within them. The air, the land, the sun, the sights made them feel entirely different. It was behind these mountains, the tragic events took place two years ago.
    ...It was in the folds of these commanding ridges, where thousands of men, women and children had been massacred by the Turks, and left for the beasts.

    Dying Every Minute (Continued)
    At dusk, the battalion camped by the cemetery just outside Deurt-Yole. The night swiftly spread its jewel-studded cloak over the land and the sea, and the coyotes, from behind the bushes, began wailing a ghastly melody.

    Tattoo was sounded and everybody plunged under the bivouacs and disappeared from sight.

    “...What are you thinking Arsen?” asked Vartan, whispering.

    “...About millions of things.”

    “...Mostly?”

    Arsen kept silent.

    “...I understand...Hasmik’s memory is torturing you...”

    “...I wonder if she...is...”

    “...You never can tell...Fate is incomprehensible”...said Vartan, philosophically.

    In the morning, Arsen jumped from his sleep terrified. A bushel of oranges was being emptied onto his face, with Vartan still pouring it, laughing heartily.

    “...What’s this?” exclaimed Arsen with surprise and amazement.

    “...Just come out and see for yourself” answered Vartan ecstatically.

    They threw the flap open and scrambled out of the bivouac.

    What an amazing sight!

    A large strip of orange trees, loaded with ripe fruit concealed Deurt-Yole from sight.

    The morning mist had vanished. The sun beamed from the top of the mountains, overlooking the vineyards, the orchards and the Gulf of Alexandrette. It was cool, fresh and pleasant. The first company was left in Deurt-Yole, and the rest of the battalion continued its way and was stationed in Kourt Koulak about twenty miles away.

    The march through the streets of Deurt-Yole was shocking. An infernal silence hung over the village. No living soul could be seen around. Every house had its miniature orchard, in the backyard, enclosed by stone walls. Branches, overloaded with fruit, hung over the streets, interlaced, spreading a carpet of fruit all around. A wild cat, now and then, would sneak in and out of the broken garden gates. Stone walls were torn, here and there, and some house doors still remained creaking on their rusty hinges.

    The air was heavy with the intoxicating scent of the fruit.

    Two church steeples stuck their crosses high through the trees, watching, tearfully the heard-rending sight of the massacred town.

    The legionnaires stationed at the Kelegian Orphanage, a three-story stone structure, all ransacked of its equipment and its pupils.

    A few days after the occupation of the village, some survivors of the holocaust, ragged, emaciated and gruesome-looking began to be seen, here and there.

    They sneaked, fearfully, in and out of the houses, and at night, they lay their poor heads on the bare floors of their houses to hear only the whisperings of their dead.

    Two weeks later the town presented an entirely different picture. The news of its occupation circulated quickly, and here, from the caves and hideouts, survivors began trickling in.

    Immediately, a campaign got under way to clean up the streets, the gardens and the houses of rubbish, rotten garbage, dead dogs and cats and of unburied decomposing corpses.

    Fires were being built out in the streets and vacant lots, as sanitary measures.

    Men, women and children were engaged in this most important work. House doors and garden gates were being repaired and dead trees removed and burned.

    A group was frantically working to clean the church, which had been converted to a stable. Manure covered the floor. Scraps of saddles, feeding bags, harnesses and dirty straw were scattered all around. They shovelled them into heaps and then carried them away and dumped them into special ditches to be burned.

    Then, the women got busy with their water jugs. They scrubbed and washed the floor of the church; the altar, the loft, the walls and the windows. They scrubbed and scrubbed. There was plenty of water in town. Many streams crossed the streets. A crude scaffold was prepared to reach the ceiling. They washed and scrubbed the entire ceiling, too. Not a single spot was left untouched. No filthy breath of beasts and unbelievers should remain at any spot.

    They cleaned the courtyard and its walls in the same manner. When everything was spotless, and their conscience clear, they made preparations for the reconsecration of the church.

    The third Sunday, the church was being reconsecrated with a High Mass. The old priest performed the ceremony, and some of the legionnaires sang in the choir.

    The congregation followed the service in deep silence and devotion, and the spirit of religion warmed them up. Their lips began murmuring prayers and their eyes shone again with the spark of life.

    The Legion had furnished plenty of candles for the occasion, and the church was generously illuminated. Living skeletons stood absorbed in the ceremony. The old priest in his sacred vestments, which he had carried in a bundle on his back throughout his entire death march, read, tearfully, passages from the Bible and blessed, now and then, the congregation with the sign of the cross.

    The scent of incense once again pervaded the House of God, seeping out the doors and windows like the murmurs of prayers from the hearts of the survivors.

    The priest raised the silver chalice, sang a few lines from the Bible and invited the congregation to partake of the bread and the wine. He knelt before the altar, and gave communion to whoever was ready for it.

    People came out of the church revitalized and strong, crowding the courtyard.

    Arsen, standing in one corner, looked wistfully around. His eyes searched in vain for her. He saw many familiar faces, but none could give him any comforting information. His heart sunk into a dark pit. He began feeling unbearably lonely and cold, when suddenly a scream pierced the air...and a feminine figure pushing through the crowd excitedly right and left, dashed toward Arsen and threw herself into his arms, crying with joy.

    “...Arsen! Arsen! ”...

    “...Hasmik, my darling!”...

    After the church service, a mass meeting was to be held. A platform was prepared for the speakers, in the courtyard.

    Vartan opened the meeting and invited the priest to say a prayer. He prayed and cried; and the audience, like a petrified crowd, was silent and motionless.

    “...Ladies and gentlemen! This is not an ordinary day for us. This is the day of the resurrection of our home town. The presence of the Armenian Legionnaires here should make you feel safe and secure. Nothing should worry you from now on. With work and patience everything will turn out to be all right.”

    Then, the speakers followed one another, and then Arsen.

    “Two years ago we were driven to the burning sands of Arabia. Torture, hunger, death and exhaustion followed our steps. We died every minute...we remained alive but died slowly. My caravan was the same as your caravan. Only the names of the chiefs were different...Ours was Mustapha, yours Hassan or Ali or Mehmed. But, they were all the same...of the same blood...of the same infernal elements”...

    “The massacre and the torture have driven you to the brink of insanity, I know. The sight of the bloody hatchets is still before your eyes. Everyone of you have gruesome stories to tell the world, I am sure. But, we are not here, today, to divert you with those stories. We are here to swear to start building what had been destroyed and writing what had been burned.”

    “To survive as a nation, we must build our churches, our schools, our libraries and our homes.”

    In the deep silence, in which the audience was listening, clatters of boots were heard approaching the gate. Everyone’s eyes turned toward them.

    The captain of the first company of the Legion came in followed by a Turkish officer with a pistol and a short bayonet hanging from his leather belt. Three Turkish soldiers, armed to the teeth, followed them in, as guards.

    Arsen’s eyes narrowed to two slits as he saw the oncoming figures.

    The captain invited the officer to the platform, to face the crowd, and made an announcement which was translated by Arsen, as follows:

    “In order to keep peace and order in this district, I have appointed Mustapha effendi as the head of the local gendarmery.”

    “Mustapha effendi charges that we are harboring a criminal here...his wife Hasmik...who must be arrested and delivered to him, right away.”

    Mustapha’s eyes shone triumphantly, when he looked at Hasmik and then to Arsen who had already recognized him.

    Silence enveloped the crowd...infernal silence...A look of cold and merciless hatred came into Arsen’s eyes, who said in a deadly voice.

    “...Defend yourself, Mustapha!” And in a flash, he pulled out his pistol and fired two shots at him.

    He fell down at the foot of the platform in a pool of blood.

    The crowd cheered wildly and rushed upon his bodyguards and seized them who had drawn their pistols out and aimed them at Arsen. In a moment the Turks lay on the stone floor, crushed and bleeding under the heels of the infuriated survivors of the massacre.

    The captain was powerless before this uncontrollable outburst.

    Mustapha was wounded in both shoulders. He was sent to the hospital by the Captain, but the doctors couldn’t save his arms. They both had to be amputated.

    Several weeks later, Mustapha came out of the hospital blind and armless.

    In order to make a living, he had to stand at the street corners and beg. He would crane his neck now and then, and stare motionless with his sightless eyes at the black space, as if he could see the ghost dancing on the bank of the river, and laughing diabolically at his fate.

    Unknown forces hammered steadily on his forehead...A maddening drone sent flashes through his mind’s eye...Angry fingers kept digging into his brain and he screamed like an epileptic.

    Then he would quiet down, for a moment, and shake his head violently, as if to dispel the satanic poison off his mind, and would remain silent, motionless and ecstatic.

    He continued to live, but he died every minute. He felt the life pulsating around him with zeal and joy, but, he was unable to see, unable to embrace and unable to clench fists in fury.



    First published in Hairenik Weekly, September 20, 1951
    Courtecy of Arsen Shahnazarian
    The son of Sempad Shahnazarian
    "All truth passes through three stages:
    First, it is ridiculed;
    Second, it is violently opposed; and
    Third, it is accepted as self-evident."

    Arthur Schopenhauer (1788-1860)

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      GENOCIDE By Sempad Shahnazarian

      "All truth passes through three stages:
      First, it is ridiculed;
      Second, it is violently opposed; and
      Third, it is accepted as self-evident."

      Arthur Schopenhauer (1788-1860)

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