I'm going to give you guys an example of my every day life and I would like to know why I am like this. Better yet, why I continue to drive myself to this point.
For example, I began a film marathon for myself to catch up on films I haven't seen. I try to watch at least one a day but strive for two or more. It gets to the point where I have to watch at least one film. I feel like if I don't watch anything for a few days, I'll put a slight dent in the daily average. I feel like by taking a break by a few days, I'll technically have withdrawn from the marathon.
Another example, I see my girlfriend every day. This entire year, I've seen her every single day; not a day has passed that I haven't seen her. However, there are days when I am extremely tired or whatever the reason, that it would be best if we both stay home and rest. Again, I can't live with myself and I have to see her. In this case, I do want to see her every day so I'm not forcing myself. But again, since I've seen her every single day this year that if I don't see her for one day, I feel like I'm breaking... something.
Does anybody know what I mean? Why am I like this?
For example, I began a film marathon for myself to catch up on films I haven't seen. I try to watch at least one a day but strive for two or more. It gets to the point where I have to watch at least one film. I feel like if I don't watch anything for a few days, I'll put a slight dent in the daily average. I feel like by taking a break by a few days, I'll technically have withdrawn from the marathon.
Another example, I see my girlfriend every day. This entire year, I've seen her every single day; not a day has passed that I haven't seen her. However, there are days when I am extremely tired or whatever the reason, that it would be best if we both stay home and rest. Again, I can't live with myself and I have to see her. In this case, I do want to see her every day so I'm not forcing myself. But again, since I've seen her every single day this year that if I don't see her for one day, I feel like I'm breaking... something.
Does anybody know what I mean? Why am I like this?
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