Just to type...

[Arvestaked]

I want to leave and I don't. I want to sit somewhere and wait. But I should be responsible and go sleep in a half an hour.

[Arvestaked]

Oreo cookies, car magazine, decaffinated coffee, comfortable clothes, the dual calling of nature...

Is it against my principles to carry that thing my mother gave me? I have asked that question to myself before but have not yet put forth the effort in answering it.

[violette829]

Armel..is everything okay with u? U seem down today, more than usual...

[Arvestaked]

Actually I was far downer yesterday than I am today.

[violette829]

Anything I can do to help? I know what u need....


Cue Smiley

[Arvestaked]

I cannot find the black cashmiere (sp?) scarf my mother just got for me. I am very upset about that. I am so absent-minded. If it is not attached to me somehow, I will lose it. I hate myself for that.

[Arvestaked]

Listening to Rush. Signals. Just had very good homemade pizza. I hope somebody kills you. Spent $185 dollars. Happy but xxxxed. Shut up. I want to go and watch a Bergman film but the television is occupied. I hate this xxxxing computer.

[Arvestaked]

I am having chest pains. I do not like that. My shirt has a lot of static and I cannot get rid of it. The pharmacy did not have static guard. I am probably going to buy a black scarf to replace the one I lost. I had kept the box it came in and the band that was wrapped around it so I know where it was bought and who the manufacturer is. I am a very angry about many things. I am going to arrange a symphony I heard on the radio last night for two guitars. I want to use that music in one of the movies I am making. I think it will fit very well and it helped me to elaborate on the opening scene. D. should be able to play both parts. This film is going to be expensive. I want to do it in Super35. I hope somebody sees my short and decides it is worth it to fund this one. I better make that short good. Where am I going to get a 22mm revolver? I do not know how to use a 35mm camera. Hopefully the Bolex will be enough for me to understand the general workings of a camera. I do not want to hire a camera operator. More later I guess.

[Arvestaked]

Little cinnamon alphabet cookies. I should clip my nails. Going to get more coffee.....................Ok. Hmm. Do I watch The Stranager or The Trial tonight? I am hot. Damn polyester. Guess what? Today sucks. Hopefully I will see E, and K. today. M. has disappeared. I am glad E. does not get drink so much anymore. What the hell is everyone doing buying Nil by Mouth anyway? I have been spending too much. I need to get back on track. Apartment. Movies. Vacations. God damn. More later.

[Arvestaked]

I hate bagels. What a stupid food. A bagel is what happens when someone who has never baked bread makes the attempt. Tasteless. But there was nothing else. So here I am eating this awful jewnut. xxxx, I forgot my coffee......................Ok that is better. The chicken I ate last night was dry; I should have used some sauce of a sort. Tobasco would have been nice. Stupid laziness. The rice was good. Very good actually. I ate the rice and chicken while watching the begining of Natural Born Killers. That is a great movie. I have not seen it in years though. I do not remember much. They made this pot of coffee a bit lighter than usual. That is good considering the coffee they use is as good as soil. I was looking at the pictures from Mars yesterday. God damn it was beautiful. Very little interests me more than space exploration. It felt amazing to see those pictures. Excellent clarity. Some made me feel like I was standing there. I hope I will be someday. Did you know that you can be on Mars during a Summer and, as long as you have a breathing aparatus, you can walk around like you would in Chicago during the winter? God damn I want to do that. I guess I have to wait until civilians can go. That alone is incentive for me to make millions of dollars and put it away in case a very expensive ticket would take me one day. For the past two days my lunch has consisted of a kraut dog, a corn dog and a chili dog from Wienerschnitzel. It used to only be the kraut and the corn. This is a bad trend, especially since I am still hungry after the recent cholesterol trios. It is casual Friday. I am wearing denim pants. That is good.