How much have you changed since..

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Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun. Now there's a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky. - Pink Floyd

OK, I have a terrible flu for the past couple of days and I am wedged in my house, bored & nothing to do, which is what tempted me to return here. Anyway, there is no interesting discussion going on so I started digging up my old post. Once I saw myself, I couldn't believe that was me. I mean, I used to say a lot things that nowadays I consider just stupid.

My point is that: I have changed.

So the gist of the thread is: Do you remember how you were when you first entered here? Your behaviour, your beliefs etc. Good. How much have you changed since then? And do you think you have become better or worst?

[Sip]

Re: How much have you changed since..

I change a lot. Long time ago, I used to be much more patient with various people and various ideas. I used to think everyone should have a right to their opinion and saying things etc. I used to be "open minded" about religion, politics, science, and other topics. Now, I have slowly changed to a point where I really believe not everyone's thoughts and ideas are equally interesting. Some are just plain wrong, some are just dumb and stupid, some really don't want to see the truth, while there are others that are definitely brilliant and very smart.

I have a lot less tolerance for those who think they know it all. I can't really stand those that think they are better than everyone else because God talks to them, or somehow they just "know" things. I especially have a short fuse with those that just repeat the "status quo" types of things (like "US is evil"), or fully buy into completely unfounded conspiracy theories like "we didn't land on the moon", or the "earth is flat", "Holocaust is a lie", "Armenian Genocide was civil war", "Bush organized 9/11", etc.

So yah, I've changed a lot and I continue to change. Sometimes for the better, sometimes for worse.

[Կարմիր Բ]

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I think I used to be somewhat cyclothymic when I first entered. I am definitely more patient and tolerant now, I don't really see a point in getting angry anymore, its useless. When I hear things that I would characterize ''stupid'', I just ignore them.

However when I get angry, its just not controllable. I want to smash the monitor. But its too expensive lol. I usually get angry on issues like injustice, racism, authority & double standards. These sort of staff.

But generally, I could say that I don't let my emotions to affect my judgement.

Last, the thing in which I had a 180 degree turn is that I am MOOOOOOREEEE sexually liberated and emotionally mature right now. I mean there is no comparison. That's the ''stupid stuff'' I was referring to in my first post. Jeez, I can't believe I actually wrote such nonsense.

[Fedayeen]

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I used to say a lot things that nowadays I consider just stupid.

My point is that: I have changed.

At the time being it wasn't stupid at all. It just that as days pass we learn more and more about the world around us.

But I agree, we change...and change is good.

[karoaper]

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I first started writing that I thought overall I had changed towards worse. But, I realize I meant to say I've changed towards being less pure, in the sense that as life goes on, you get hurt, you get panic-stricken, you get less healthy (physically and mentally). Naturally, your outlook and idealism changes.

One huge thing that has changed is that I'm quite weary of talking and, as they say, hearing my own voice. I used to be almost a perfect extrovert. Now, I'm a lot more introverted. I guess drowning your problems and concerns in mindless/empty talk at some point seizes to be a solution.

Certain things have also taken place in the last few years that have made me value above all health, clarity of mind, and, to a degree, self-preservation.

Neat topic btw.

[sad_eyes]

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I remember when I first joined. I didnt know if I would be accepted into the forum or not because I am not armenian. But everyone here was really kind and gave me a warm welcome. Hahaha. I hated anonymouse, I thought he was being ignorant to me. But now, reading most of his posts I see that he wasnt, and I was just being paranoid like usual. He spoke to me like he speaks to everyone else.

I used to be quite more active in the forum. I pratically lived on here. Now, I poke my nose in here and there to see whats new. I see there are a quite a few new members.

I think I have become a little colder, Im not as friendly.

[One-Way]

Re: How much have you changed since..

I was childish and immature. Those who I thought were assholes are now looked at as the intelligent ones. Those who I got along with are now looked at as idiots.

[TomServo]

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I hit puberty.

[Կարմիր Բ]

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Hahaha. I hated anonymouse, I thought he was being ignorant to me. But now, reading most of his posts I see that he wasnt, and I was just being paranoid like usual. He spoke to me like he speaks to everyone else.

Which is like ignorant.

[Fedayeen]

Re: How much have you changed since..

I was childish and immature. Those who I thought were assholes are now looked at as the intelligent ones. Those who I got along with are now looked at as idiots.

So you grew out of it but they didn't