I was reading my friends "Vent" thread on his message board, and he had a very long post just venting, and getting his thoughts out. I spent a few minutes writing a post, but then I realized the thread was closed, lol. So I didn't wanna throw it away, so I'm gonna post it in here. It might still make some sense even though it was sort of meant to him.
Also, since I always vent, this thread is for everybody else, including myself, to just vent.
Here's the post:
"I can totally relate to what you're saying.
I don't even wanna try talking to you about it, because I wouldn't know how to start.
Lately, I've been going through a lot of stress myself. Days keep getting worse. Honestly, something good never comes along anymore. I just keep waking up and saying, "God, please, don't give me another horrible day." We all have our own share of problems in life. Sometimes I make threads on message boards, IM or call my friends, and try to tell them about my problems. People listen, yeah, but no one knows how you feel except YOU. People seem to care, but they just DON'T GET IT. Not even my family, people I struggle WITH. It's hard, but there's not much you can do.
And this doesn't really have to do with you or anything, but honestly, I wish I never took this path with music. I'm not really deep into it right now, as far as CD's completed goes, but mentally, I'm too deep, you know? I just don't think I can quit. Sometimes I start thinking real, like, "What if I never get there?". You can't just say you will. You have to face reality. But then what? I fail? Yeah, I go to school, I'm trying to figure out something I'm good at to fall back on that, but I don't have a passion for anything else. I like singing, I want people to hear what I have to say - but then again, there's a million people JUST like me. So I've been dreaming this dream of being big and talking out to people through songs since I was 12, and now, all of a sudden, I gotta stop?
Mike, I'm sorry, I'm venting now, and it's not towards you're xxxx. But if you don't mind, let me keep going.
When you said you don't say things in front of people because it might hurt them, I TOTALLY agree. I don't know if this is how it is with you, but this is what I see. Let's say I have insecurities about my height. Which I do, but it doesn't really bother me anymore. It did back in middle school, though. I was short, and it was obvious, but even my CLOSE friends and even FAMILY, would make fun of me, or whatever. Bring it up at the randomest time, and when I was happy, it would put a frown on my face. Like, "Did you have to say that?" It hurts my feelings. The height issue doesn't bother me much anymore. I grew a little bit, I'm 5'8 now, and I don't care if I'm not 6 feet, the height xxxx doesn't bother me anymore. But a lot of other things do, and when friends and family poke fun at it, it hurts.
Sometimes it's like, "xxxx. Just live YOUR life, and I'll live MINE." But all we do is vent, man. Most people don't listen. A lot do, but their advice is worthless because it doesn't help, even though they try.
And I know this post doesn't do you any good, but when I was reading yours, I was relating, like you were talking to me. With everything going wrong these days, I had to post back and just vent myself a little bit."
Also, since I always vent, this thread is for everybody else, including myself, to just vent.
Here's the post:
"I can totally relate to what you're saying.
I don't even wanna try talking to you about it, because I wouldn't know how to start.
Lately, I've been going through a lot of stress myself. Days keep getting worse. Honestly, something good never comes along anymore. I just keep waking up and saying, "God, please, don't give me another horrible day." We all have our own share of problems in life. Sometimes I make threads on message boards, IM or call my friends, and try to tell them about my problems. People listen, yeah, but no one knows how you feel except YOU. People seem to care, but they just DON'T GET IT. Not even my family, people I struggle WITH. It's hard, but there's not much you can do.
And this doesn't really have to do with you or anything, but honestly, I wish I never took this path with music. I'm not really deep into it right now, as far as CD's completed goes, but mentally, I'm too deep, you know? I just don't think I can quit. Sometimes I start thinking real, like, "What if I never get there?". You can't just say you will. You have to face reality. But then what? I fail? Yeah, I go to school, I'm trying to figure out something I'm good at to fall back on that, but I don't have a passion for anything else. I like singing, I want people to hear what I have to say - but then again, there's a million people JUST like me. So I've been dreaming this dream of being big and talking out to people through songs since I was 12, and now, all of a sudden, I gotta stop?
Mike, I'm sorry, I'm venting now, and it's not towards you're xxxx. But if you don't mind, let me keep going.
When you said you don't say things in front of people because it might hurt them, I TOTALLY agree. I don't know if this is how it is with you, but this is what I see. Let's say I have insecurities about my height. Which I do, but it doesn't really bother me anymore. It did back in middle school, though. I was short, and it was obvious, but even my CLOSE friends and even FAMILY, would make fun of me, or whatever. Bring it up at the randomest time, and when I was happy, it would put a frown on my face. Like, "Did you have to say that?" It hurts my feelings. The height issue doesn't bother me much anymore. I grew a little bit, I'm 5'8 now, and I don't care if I'm not 6 feet, the height xxxx doesn't bother me anymore. But a lot of other things do, and when friends and family poke fun at it, it hurts.
Sometimes it's like, "xxxx. Just live YOUR life, and I'll live MINE." But all we do is vent, man. Most people don't listen. A lot do, but their advice is worthless because it doesn't help, even though they try.
And I know this post doesn't do you any good, but when I was reading yours, I was relating, like you were talking to me. With everything going wrong these days, I had to post back and just vent myself a little bit."
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