Quarter Life Crisis

[Anonymouse]

Still boring .

[nunechka]

is this boring?

[Hasmik]

Nune:

WHen is your GRE test?

[nunechka]

the GMAT! and its the day after tomorrow? or to be technically correct tomorrow...

AHAHAHAH!

[ckBejug]

i am in the process of planning a get away from this place vacation and read as many books as i can vacation... again it easy to say - hey take a vacation or something - but it is not was when you have so much responsiblity you are carrying on your shoulders... and thats what scares me sometimes - i think "they trust me with this? HOLY SH!T, amazing..."

isnt it strange that we are going through this and yet people all over the world consider people like you [bejuk] and I as lucky people?

"they trust me with this? HOLY SH!T, amazing..."
How many times have I asked myself the same question while at work? In the beginning it was too many to count. Now I am resigned to the work that I do and because I've been doing it for so long it's become 'not a big deal' to me. I start to think that it's not such a big deal that I am dealing with this DNA project or that cloning cell line, blah blah blah. It starts to freak me out though when I tell people what I do, and they are incredulous that I should be doing what I do and not off trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. The fact that they seem so taken aback or impressed by it makes me question my abilities even though I know I am doing a damn good job. You know? At 22 it's also a tad amusing to be surrounded my people aged 35-60, doing the same work I do, all aiming for the same end goals (granted, I have obviously less responsibility than the 60 year old head of the lab).

As for being 'lucky'. I've heard that one too. Oh you're lucky you know what you want to do with your life and you've found this job that fits you so well. So what?! I thought I wanted to be so many things when I was younger, Marine Biologist, Pediatrician, and now, Scientist. So what? Does this mean that I don't have my own stress and trouble and nagging doubts about my job and my life in general? Of course I do! On top of which I have a job to do that I have to wake up and rush to every morning and stay until I get done, no matter if I was supposed to go home two or three hours ago, without overtime pay! Not that I'm complaining, I mean I know I could be stuck in a job I hate and I could be hating every minute I am at work. I love being here. But, that doesn't mean it's perfect or everything is great, super super. People seem to forget that.

So, since I have no family ties (as in husband, children, etc) that keep me here with people to take care of, I take every opportunity I have for a weekend away and make the best of it, because it's necessary, it really is. I spent the last two years working and going to school at night, it sucked big time, I seriously had no time to myself. I have nothing but work this year and since I don't work on the weekends I have ample opportunity to get away. Do you work on the weekends? If you don't you should seriously milk them for all you can.

Good luck on the GMAT (going to business school?). I heard they're not too bad. Hey, don't you guys have Memorial day off? We do at Caltech so I assume you must too, unless you have to come in and finish work (I hate having to finish work on Saturdays). It's gorgeous out and we're close enough to the beach, you should make time even if you don't think you have any.

[Siggie]

It starts to freak me out though when I tell people what I do, and they are incredulous that I should be doing what I do and not off trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. The fact that they seem so taken aback or impressed by it makes me question my abilities even though I know I am doing a damn good job.

They're in awe of you, as they should be.
It is hard not to question yourself though. It's good to have friends around to reassure you that you kick ass when you do it though.

[nunechka]

thanks bejuck - actually in the recent past - ohhh 3 months already - havent had a weekend... its been WORK WORK WORK! so when time comes around i will milk it for what i can...

and caltech eyy! i work at jpl... so you know exactly what i mean...

and yes business school - so much for weekends... lol

[ckBejug]

They're in awe of you, as they should be.
It is hard not to question yourself though. It's good to have friends around to reassure you that you kick ass when you do it though.

I've been working here for almost a year now and became 'permanent' after two months of working here, rather than the standard six, and yet, yeaterday, when I found out how many people applied for the position I got, I got so freaked out that they would just take it away from me and give it to someone else I had all the self-doubt all over again.

silly me.

[ckBejug]

thanks bejuck - actually in the recent past - ohhh 3 months already - havent had a weekend... its been WORK WORK WORK! so when time comes around i will milk it for what i can...

and caltech eyy! i work at jpl... so you know exactly what i mean...

and yes business school - so much for weekends... lol

I've gone from Bejug to bejuk to bejuck. lol.

Good lord woman, take a weekend off! Surely they give you vacations. We have a very nice vacation package here, don't you?? Oh man, business school on top of that, eh? Good luck!

We're so mean here dude. So Monday the undergrad Seniors had their annual ditch day and the girls in my lab spent the day joking about how they are all probably hiding in a library somewhere having a big group study session. lol. We suck. Soemtimes I feel like I am not geek enough for this school. And then I look at my pocket protector (on my lab coat, ok?).

[Siggie]

We're so mean here dude. So Monday the undergrad Seniors had their annual ditch day and the girls in my lab spent the day joking about how they are all probably hiding in a library somewhere having a big group study session. lol. We suck. Soemtimes I feel like I am not geek enough for this school. And then I look at my pocket protector (on my lab coat, ok?).

Why is that mean? Is it not something they would do?

OMG!!! You get to wear a lab coat?! I'm sooo jealous. Hmph.
Sometimes I wish I was neuro psych or bio psych so I could wear a lab coat, then I remember that I don't want to be slicing frozen mouse brains.